Anyway, the title is about that feeling I have when something that is coming up in the need future, but not here yet is in my thought process. The big "R" word… Retirement. I am still a couple of months off from "dropping my papers" although I am eligible to at any time. But the desire to just say F-it and drop them the next work day wells up more and more often. The thing is, it would not do any good. I still will have to finish my tour in
One more boat ride, knock on wood (not that I am superstitious), and it is all over but the movement from
I know a lot of people who seem to enjoy
I am scared poop-less about the prospect of retirement. Having spent the last 20+ years in the institution, one tends to become institutionalized. And despite my natural resistance to it, I have suffered some of those effects. It may be a bit like stockholm syndrome in a way. But it is time to make the leap.
This is life. A series of leaps. Gaps exist between each leap. That is why we have to leap. I used to take big leaps. Now, it is much more difficult to do that. So I admire that younger self. And resent that older self that hesitates to leap. Maybe I will drop those papers sooner rather than later.