But I have had a sinking suspicion that there is a big void in my practice
I know when I look deeply at it there are a lot of things I have allowed to
For example I have not made time to play the flute very often and I don't do
all of the gathas that I used to. But I don't think that is it.
The demon I thought I had subdued a while back that prompted the last name
change of this blog seems to be out an about, frolicking in the field of my
life and relationships. Snapping at anyone who happens by. Casting
judgments on every thing. Creating arguments and distractions.
Three steps forward two steps back or so the song goes, lately it has felt
more like two steps forward three steps back.
Taking a look at some old stuff offered by Kosho Uchiyama Roshi in the last
formal talk he gave at Antaiji, on February 23, 1975.
1 Study and practice the Buddha-dharma only for the sake of the
Buddha-dharma, not for the sake of human emotions and worldly ideas.
2 Zazen is the most venerable and only true teacher.
3 Zazen must work concretely in our daily lives as the two practices (vow
and repentance), the three minds (magnanimous mind, parental mind, and
joyful mind), and as the realization of the saying, "Gaining is delusion,
losing is enlightenment."
4 Live by vow and root it deeply.
5 Realizing that development and backsliding are your responsibility alone,
endeavor to practice and develop.
6 Sit silently for ten years, then for ten more years, and then for another
7 Cooperate with one another and aim to create a place where sincere
practitioners can practice without trouble.
I went off course right from the start.
Time to try again.