I seem to be getting sick more often. Pushing the body too hard maybe.
Last night I had stuff coming out of both ends. It was not pretty.
I could not do Zazen, so I did some bedzen and practiced the meditation of following the breath.
My consideration drifted to suffering. I wonder if being sick is necessarily suffering. I do not think so now. When I was doing the breath meditation I was not suffering at all. I was still most definitely sick, I was just breathing. Had I wanted to do anything but just lay there and breath, than I think I would have been suffering.
I know I often drift back to the Noble Eightfold Path and Four Noble truths in this blog. Maybe this hearkens to by roots as a fundamentalist I do not know for sure.
Some folks do not appear to be interested in what I think is the most important teaching. Weather Buddhism is a personality cult or not I still value that first sermon most. Buddhism is not about enlightenment. It never has been. The people chasing after it will never find anything but delusion within delusion. That is not to say that there is no enlightenment. But it is never something to seek. The "truth" is that there is only enlightened action. We preform that action throughout our delusion. We refine it through our actions. We may even be lucky enough to wake up to our own delusion. That enlightenment people are seeking is just taking a walk down that Noble eightfold path. Realizing your suffering for what it is, attachment to your desire for things to be different than they are. This is a practice of letting go... Or at least that is how I feel at this moment.
May you be well and happy.